Some things occured to me yesterday… What do I want from life? And why is it so hard to admit it to myself? I was on this rather touchy topic because my team leader from work was asking us what was the driving force behind wanting to be successful. I said my mom, siblings, my writing career, and for myself. I chose those because it’s all something I’m very passionate about. I chose my mom because she’s my hero she’s my backbone and no matter what I do in life she’s always rooting for me. Just the other day she said
“Whether you believe it or not I’m your biggest fan kid”
And I immediately got to thinking that’s enough to keep me motivated when I get down on myself. She’s sacrificed so much for us I just wanna give her the world in return.
My siblings keep me going because they’re constantly looking up to me and that’s enough to let me know that I can’t fail them. The pressure of making sure I never screw up is always on.
Next was my writing career. Honestly I’m not sure about a lot of things in this world well life but what I do know is I will only continue to grow as a writer and I just want to reach the inner voices of kids like me. I wanna inspire them.
And lastly I chose myself. I used to have this tendency (still do at times) that I would always get down on myself no matter what. I can’t wait to reach that point of growth where literally anything anyone says to me won’t matter. It’ll just be ful added to the fire. Some days I wish the negative Nancy’s would shut the fuck up but without them where would you be? Life is interesting and I don’t wanna figure it out I just wanna get better. I wanna grow, I wanna succeed, I wanna inspire.
It’s funny when you notice your growth.
Have a good day!