Tonight has been a good night I’d say . I just completely fell apart and still currently letting it all come out. Crying can be good for the soul. It started when I was laying down watching some def jam poetry because I’ve been itching to go to an open mic night! I’m trying to create the reality that I want but I feel as if I’m just letting everyone around me influence it. I seriously don’t know what the hell I’m doing I’m just doing it. Yes I’ve accomplished some things but I don’t feel that way. It’s like my desire, my drive, my dreams ar gone or just went dim and I have to find it again but where the hell is it? It’s funny because I don’t know how I got here. I’m not the type of person to put all of my business out to my friends or family because I don’t see the point I just rather deal with my problems on my own but what am I doing now? Letting all my problems out via blog where nobody knows me can see my truths. I mean I know everything is going to be fine and I’ll get through whatever it is I am going through at this current moment. Life doesn’t make sense and I don’t want it to make sense because that’s the beauty of it. I’m starting to feel a little better despite the fact that tears are still in my eyes.