Christmas 2015

So guys! I am terribly sorry for the absence!! I’ve been locked out of my blog for the past several months because I thought I’d be clever and put a two step verification code on my account (bad move). But I will be back later with more writing and an update with whats been going on in my life, I have missed all of you so much!

Yesterday I went to Bauman Rare books and I was completely blown away by what was in there. So many old, different books some I heard of some I hadn’t heard of but the experience was much more for me. When I’m surrounded by books sometimes I get a bit overwhelmed because there’s so much to choose from so many different journeys to go on. I really see reading as another form of traveling and here’s why:

When you’re reading you see the world from a whole different perspective you’re front row in someone else’s life and the journey is always unexpected for them and for you. That’s why I always say I don’t only wanna travel through books but also through my life..

For some reason oddly traveling has really been on my mind more than it usually is….Last night I was watching the Wild Thornberrys movie and I forgot how much I really enjoyed that show it made me feel alive (not saying that I never do). But Eliza inspired me she had a destiny she had something she had to do and she stopped at nothing to make it happen.

Now I know no one is ever really certain of their destiny or what this life holds for them but its fun to just flow with life and enjoy it. I think that a lot of people are way too serious and maybe that’s part of them being unhappy.

Look not quite sure where I’m going with this but all I wanna say is read more, love more, live more, travel more, challenge things, and have fun in your life. There’s too much out here to take advantage of.

21…

To be honest I’ve learned and met so many different people now that I am living out on my own. I can say that I’m truly grateful for it. Talking to different kinds of people and trying to learn and take as much as I can from any experience.

I keep saying this but only because its true. I want my life to be full, exciting, and filled with the things that I enjoy the most and I don’t want anyone to slow that down for me which is probably why I can’t come to the conclusion of being in a relationship or not.

The love that I encounter may or may not be permanent but I’ve learned that temporary love is okay too.

Being able to see the world from my own eyes and no one elses is truly a blessing. I know that there is much more to come. Far more than what I am experiencing now. I’m reaching for the stars from here on out and I want to get my hands into a bit of everything! I’m happy with the way things are going even though I may not be fully satisfied at the moment but I’m still creating my life still finding myself through the madness. I believe that everyone I’ve met has definitely been for a reason and it’ll only progress.

So I say to anyone who is reading this even if your life seems like it’s not where you want it to be right now just enjoy it and be happy. Be content in your life this is the only life you’ll remember even if reincarnation is real or not live your LIFE  the way you’d like and don’t worry about what anyone has to say about it. That’s all its about. Do what makes you happy and go for whatever is burning in your heart.

You don’t like the way things are going? Change it and don’t wait for a second there’s so much to see.

Much love guys!

We all come together and pretend to have a good time or is it just me? Certain places that I come to hang out at are usually not up to my speed. As I’m saying this I’m taking my earrings off . Just loosening up and getting more comfortable to really observe my surroundings. I let myself try to at least feel the music just to try and catch the vibe of the place.

Smoking the hookah I let all my troubles subside. I wonder why everyone has to pretend or am I just pretending? Do people really enjoy themselves at these functions or is it all a facade to hide the fact that we’re all sad, lonely, unfulfilled? Truth is I’m neither at the moment. I’m just rambling. But society never ceases to amuse me…

Friday Night.

One of the newest words my generation has came up with is “lit”….. My Friday night is everything but that. I’m not sad about it or anything but I am a little bored I fell asleep before 10 but I’m awake now and it’s 10:50 :/ jokes on me right? Well this is just me posting something because….

Have a groovy weekend guys!


9/29

It’s like every time I say I’m back I never stay lol. But seriously everyone I’m back! It’s been a rough couple of weeks ever since I moved into my apartment but it’s smooth sailing now.

Vegas has been treating me really well… I’m learning how to network and connect with people (the right people at that) because I feel like that’s what life is about. Living, celebrating, and being happy. Celebrating your existence and doing as much in this world that you can possibly do. Aside from trying to find/figure out your destiny. I’ve been sitting around planning and planning things and then I realized why sit and plan things when you can just do it!

That’s something that I’ve been struggling with a lot lately. I don’t know where or how it happened it’s like I was at a standstill….frozen…and then I was reborn. Kinda like Neo in the matrix.. I promise to dedicate myself to my writing, and blog. I promise to never let myself down like that again.

I’m going to remove the word “try” out of my vocabulary and continue to press on.

I hope that you all are having a great night! Be groovy everyone 🙂

A push .

So I’m lazy on here to :/ I’ve been cursed with laziness! The flame within me went out but now I’m shining brighter than ever!! I met a girl some time back and she’s a hair stylist, I kept telling myself that I’d eventually contact her and get her information from my aunt because I lost the card she gave me. I had been collecting hair cards from just about anyone who had one and just throwing them into this shoe box that I have (where I keep my personal letters etc) so I found it and decided that I would contact her because I wanted to treat myself  (get my hair done). So I set up and appointment and she came to do my hair.

Right off the bat she was very bubbly, smiling, and super happy I loved her energy she’s such a beautiful person. But carrying on she and I begin to talk and I noticed we had a lot in common and I just vibed with her. She’s super excited to have her opening for her very own salon so talking to her really motivated me in a very good way. And I’ve been enjoying her company for the past couple of days.

Meeting her just put things into perspective. Its so much that I want to do I decided to sit down at my kitchen table and write everything out….I eventually put everything onto paper and posted it on my bulletin board.. now EVERYDAY it’ll be there to remind me that I always have something to be working on. 

But seriously…. I can say I’ve been shown the real and as long as you keep (yourself (god) (whatever you want to call it) first everything in your life will always work out in your favor every time. Keep your heads high . Worry less, and know that its always done. Life will give you everything you need and more.

Skin

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Yours, mines, and hers it didn’t matter she was never comfortable in it. Was something wrong with her? Out of the many years of her existence she never felt confident. She begin to wonder why… Are my thighs to big? Am I to tall? Is my stomach pudgy? Is everyone looking at me? Did they see my eye cross? But when she was alone she felt like she didn’t have to worry she could just be. No one from the outside looking in, no one to criticize her. When she’s alone she can rejoice, she can sing, she can dance, she can be anything she wanted to be. And why? Because she’s free to discover herself. On the outside world people seem to know exactly who they are but in fact who they are isn’t even who they really want to be. Its all pretend, this “real world” its nothing but a figment. But these are the things that she sees. Egoistic people running the scenes, pretending to be happy because all they seek is greed, money, power, and prestige, but all that together is really just intellect. What if she told you instead of intellect it should be intelligence? Intelligence comes from the heart, so if there were more intelligent people than intellectual people everyone could be free. Free to dream, free to breathe, free to love, free to be whomever they were intended to be. But instead man rather have it easy. Politics over love. So in this world she’ll never be free, free to be in yours, mines, or her true skin…. naturally. 

Sunday Funday

So I moved into my apartment exactly one week ago and so far I like it! Just my dog and I for now but all in all I actually enjoy having my own place but boy can I tell ya it does get a little lonely sometimes but that’s me just thinking about the negatives of being alone and single. I’ve been reading a lot of Osho’s books and I’ve been assured that loneliness is perfectly okay because once you can find that happiness in your loneliness you become comfortable in your aloneness, basically loneliness and aloneness are different. Loneliness would be that feeling of being alone and not being okay with it while aloneness is basically being content in your loneliness. I suffer with being alone I actually hate it tb quite honest but I think this is something that I must face on my own and once I do I’ll be fine. Its seriously not a big deal I just think as humans we make being alone a big deal. I’m learning to be thankful and grateful for my alone time and peace. And I hope to grow in my seclusion, closer to myself and closer to my inner being.